Is that Samantha Harris?
Yes.
I’m the consultant who took over your case last year.
Oh, hello.
Sorry, it’s taken so long to get back to you.
‘pleasantries’
Bombshell
The hospital can no longer perform the surgery to remove the TVT mesh. We were unable to secure funding.
Yes, we do have the expertise to remove TVT mesh by laparoscopy.
No, the clinic which has been funded doesn’t have the expertise.
I’m sorry Ms Harris.
Yes, I will write to your GP who will need to refer you to the removal clinic.
Bye.
Thank you Doctor. Bye.
Summing up as I can’t write about this. It hurts too much.
unextraordinarybint Samantha Harris in London, England. 
5 responses to “Hard”
Look at that; is that you Samantha! I swear to God I actually just thought about you last night and early this morning as to why I hadn’t seen your notices or any real sign of you? I was planning to reach out early but ran into some difficulties today and mos of it technical! But Lo and Behold just when I was getting a leg up on this nonsense I gazed at my email inbox and saw a notification from none other than “Samantha Unextraordinarybint Harris” right near the top, and had come in at 11:11 AM! Its good to know you’re hanging in and I do hope most everything is going along well enough with all the family! Bruiser I hope is a settled down good boy just having a relaxing peaceful time with you there!
My big concern these days is wit he massive secular totalitarian push for NWO and in some locales more than others the hammer has come down harder so seeing that tile of yours Hard got me jumpy! I’m not thoroughly aware of all the details there but I tend to think of your nation being in a condition that is like some of our worst hardest hit areas due to the ruling class bureaucracy putting severe controls on the citizens as if the people in those unfortunate areas are some kind of insects and not people! I’ve gotten angry enough over the many months so lately I’m trying to stay strong on the inside and not feel too oppressed. Most if not all of the politicians are liars or in the least useless idiots that won’t do anything to fix the real problem which they are part of! I do feel encouraged when I see there are some brave souls who are fully aware and in positions where they can have some serious influence on the atrocities being committed and really seem to be working toward doing something about it!
What is now happening in Israel is sad; like in so many other tightly controlling bureaucracies that want every human being vaccinated; which is to me absolutely hideous!
Let me know how you’re doing when you want or can, and keep up the good that you do!
Blessing to you and yours!
Lawrence
Thanks Lawrence. You are a kind soul. We lost Bruiser the month before last. However, he will always be part of our story and hearts. It’s too painful to write in detail just yet but it’s a possible subject for some point in the future. I have adjustment disorder so will deal with it when my brain can compute. I have been having problems with my health and struggling but I’m slowly getting a hold of myself again. Lots of ‘staying away from news channels’ but that’s kinda impossible as the surrealness hits you twice as hard when you go outside. I’m channeling my anger at Johnson & Johnson as they, as well as other pharmaceutical companies, have taken the real piss out of humans for too long. There needs to be more laws around medical implants.
Blessings to you and yours.
Samantha… I was thinking about you lately as to not knowing what’s going on there I hoped all was well but just too busy to be involved on here with bantering with all the frustrations of others I figured! Now I choked up too; though glad that you and family are well I take it, but I’m very sad about Bruiser; actually I feel hurt too. But, time heals all wounds and a lady taught me how to look at it all better when I lost my great Samoyed mother I rescued, how this woman living with her husband a State Trooper and one of the pups that came from my Sammie; a long distance from my home and not having seen them since several years before when they came to pick up the pup; called out of the blue and she is a shy lady so doesn’t reach out like that, but told me something told her to call me quick! It was the day after I lost the dog, and she had me crying on the phone, but assured me it will all be fine, and she was going to send me a copy of something that will spell out the truth! She read it to me on the phone, it did change something in my heart immediately so that I calmed down; the poem “Rainbow Bridge” which I even spoke to a priest about the whole matter and what that poem is pointing out and he said with God anything is possible! I know you’re good at research; but do you know that poem is anonymous and supposedly no one knows where it came from! I could be wrong but I never looked into it because I’m happy with the poem and my own idea that it came from an Angel! The priest told me or asked me what is Dog spelled backwards; so that was the cherry on the cake for me, I said thanks God I know you make things right eventually and I really want to see my dogs again when I leave this place of sorrows, and I do believe I will see them and know them again in a better way!
In time I’m sure you will address this matter in your most heartfelt way too!
This I quote from your letter because it hits me in my head and heart too! “Lots of ‘staying away from news channels’ but that’s kinda impossible as the surrealness hits you twice as hard when you go outside. I’m channeling my anger at Johnson & Johnson as they, as well as other pharmaceutical companies, have taken the real piss out of humans for too long.” I don’t watch any MSM news and only dig into very forthright sources for a few things to contemplate or write about too, but I was getting way too agitated and angry at the whole lot; I used to work in television news before it got this ugly and it was pretty good back then though also corrupted to some level, so I have to be careful too, today I wouldn’t last 5 minutes working in Corporate journalism! The atrocities that these huge Pharma conglomerates are getting away with is too much to tolerate for me at times too; but I still jump in and give my two cents or Pence and or Schilling I guess to speak my mind though what good does it do other than makes me think I got heard and made a tiny difference somewhere, maybe!
Just relax and contemplate all the good that you have in your life and I know you’re aware we all have so much to be thankful for even in tough times and the best things will come eventually; I do believe. Sad how the greediest scoundrels in the world don’t want us to have anything it appears not even our own lives to live as we may! Bastards!
God bless and I hope you and your family stay healthy as can be as well as close! Much more healing for you!
Thank you for filling me in and I’ll say a prayer now for your situation and you and yours!
All the best,
Lawrence
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….
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It is always me. No one else writes for my blog but me. Ah the good old 11.11…only with the time difference. I feel sadness over Israel but I always have. I feel that they have had plenty to be sad about of late and much that they can lay blame with no one but themselves. However, this does not mean that my heart and soul doesn’t go out to those lost in the recent stampede. It was a terrible affair. Not make any easier when some of victims refused care from female health workers – I feel lessons for many are being learnt, but hasn’t it always been like that? One of the strongest messages I feel coming through this ‘covid19strategy’ is kindness with the confrontation. The media needs to stop manipulating and start reporting realities in a non biased fashion. Perhaps, then we will get somewhere. Until then, I still believe that we have been under a state capture style attack from the Pharmaceutical companies. But, I would…Thanks for your comments Lawrence.
Ha, ha very funny Samantha! Well I was more tongue in cheek about it being you having not seen you pop-up on my radar for some time. I was very relieved it was really you though!
Israel is sadly a nation between a rock and a hard place as I see it because like you I see how they’ve had so much to cope with as a small nation surrounded by mostly unfriendly or hostile neighbors! And you’re right about many hard lessons are being learned, which has been the case for too long!
I agree that kindness is a byproduct of a horrid mess hat manipulative leaders or tyrants along with the convoluted and biased media that has basically fanned the flames into an inferno! And that’s very true about a state capture style attack or takeover of the general population; with I’m sure other sinister plans in the making by these same megalomaniac or sociopathic despots! Our CDC Dr. Anthony Fauci is a truly hideous human being and I really get in a rage if I catch him shooting his mouth off in any news clip! This is all very unconscionable what they have perpetrated upon the masses ruining and destroying so many lives and they don’t care one iota! And he a doctor; what have some of these people of science and medicine done totally forgot the Hippocratic Oath? The Big Pharma are one of the top driving forces behind all the corruption in this dilemma and many polices that are bad; the money and power involved in Big Pharma, as I’m sure you’re well aware; are absolutely so corrupting.
Some years back I worked in TV News and Sports as a photographer and originally thought I would love it, but even back then I hated the bias or politics inserted into too many news decisions and so I dropped out and went for more documentary or creative work, then actually just good hard work to stay out of all the BS and away from managers or other big shots! I eventually could see how corruption was entering into just about any place it could! The lure of fame and fortune or getting rich quick seems to have infected the planet!
Always glad to comment and will again soon enough I’m sure!
Blessings to you and yours!